The World Of Modeling

This is a very touchy topic to say the least but I wanted to shed some light on this for plenty of reasons. Now if you’re one like me you try to see the good in everything before you start to think negatively. I have experienced this world first hand and I’m still apart of it today. There’s girls who spend their whole life trying to be someone’s definition of perfect. There’s girls who starve themself trying to do so. This is where I had to take a step back when I first signed to the agency I’m currently signed to today.

I absolutely adore my agency. We are a team of individuals who all do our part to make being there fun but still professional. That way it’s not not a place a model should hate. Every instructor, or model is kind to one another and there’s no typical drama like some agencies carry. I’ve been behind cameras since I was a little girl. I started getting into actual modeling when I was 10 years old. Once I got older I didn’t really care anymore until I was 17. I joined the modeling world officially again in the spring of 2019. I took hours of runway classes, I took a etiquette class. I signed my name off to Millie Lewis Of Charleston. They own me as a model and I’m obligated to only book shoots through them until my contract is up. This is where my eyes were opened to this industry.

There’s countless photographers who all want the same model because she’s the “best” or has the “best” skin , hair , whatever you think of you can fill in the blank for that statement. Then it starts to warp the minds of these girls and they slowly but surely turn on each other. Everyone is so caught up in being perfect and getting that name for themselves. Believe it or not you have to maintain a certain weight, which you wouldn’t think is awful but sometimes it’s not healthy under any circumstance. These girls are competing with each other rather than building one another up. You start to become so self absorbed and so full of yourself and you will do anything for that one perfect pic, or that one perfect Instagram post.

Now I’m gonna get a little personal with y’all. I wanted that perfect shot. I wanted every picture to be photoshopped and I wanted that flawless skin you see on a Vogue magazine. I wanted the waist of a size 0 but still with curves. I wanted tan skin for every picture , I wanted every little flaw on my body gone. It’s like you let that idea flood over you and after that you will do anything to look someone else’s definition of perfect. I’m gonna be completely honest , a girl can only take it for so long. I grew use to that and I soaked it all up. I let that change how I felt about myself until just recently. As you all probably have seen ...I’ve taken a break behind the professional side of the camera.

Today I am focusing on growing a name for myself. I’m focusing on growing this website I’ve started and seeing where this success will take me. I’m so proud of myself. I wake up everyday and I’m okay with the body I’m in. I do think I can improve it in some areas but I’m not focused on that. Everyone tells me I’m perfectly fine the way I am and I know that. To make this clear for all of you who are wondering, yes I’m still signed to Millie Lewis. I choose what shoots I wanna do, I choose when I want to. I only do certain ones if I’m getting paid and I don’t do it that much anymore. I’ve slowed down. I’m focusing on my social media platforms and will remain signed until next spring. If you took the time to read this mini journey but huge impact on me, thank you. http://www.millielewischarleston.com/kristen-head